I was a member of the LDS Church until May 2003 after I went infront of my congregation at Northridge 3rd Ward and announced during fast and testimony that I was Gay. I can honestly say that it was a moment of insanity because of what could have happened. I have always been a strong minded person, confident and sure of myself. The mormon's way of brainwashing and threatening really didnt and could not have worked on me. Honestly the Bishop and First Council were pretty cool about it. They took me into the office and sat me down and told me that they know and understand my struggles and that one in every 10 men is gay. They told me that if I wanted the Churche's help, that I could remain a member as long as I vowed celibacy and attended regular meetings with a mormon psychiatrist. I declined. There is nothing wrong with me, I just dont find women attractive and I never have. As a member of the Church I lied about my attractions simply because I wanted to fit in. What most people dont know about being Mormon, is that within the Church is a world in and of itself. There is a support group and friends and leaving that and walking into an empty world where there is no connection to anyone is very terrifying. The only reason i survived is because my life was not exclusively Mormon. I had secular friends and my family consisted of non-believers, baptists, and born again non-denominational christians. My leaving the Church was met with applause. Unfortunately there are alot of young men and women who leave the church and walk into a big world where they dont know anyone and they dont have any support. This documentary really hit home for me. Never has anything made me so sick in my life. I never knew that Gordon B Hinckley said those terrible things about Gay People, had I heard that as a member I would have definately lost it. This documentary was moving and emotional, it almost made me cry. More than anything it terrified me. Religion is far to personal, and far to unstable to have so much power. If we all are not careful it is only a matter of time before the churches unite, Catholic, Evagelical, Mormon etc etc and plot a global take over that we will regret. This may sound like science fiction, but as a member of the LDS Church, I saw first hand how secrets found their way into the laps of Bishops and the Higher-Ups of the Church. This is not GOD, this is plain and simple human, military strategy. The fact that my community was under attack by the Religious Right, is not what made me sick while watching this documentary, the issue of what was going on is what made me sick. Thousands, millions, of people rallied together to TAKE AWAY CIVIL RIGHTS. It is terrifying that a Church, a house of God can gather an army under hate. It could just as easily have been a rival of Jim Crow supporters. What I found funny is how in the mormon church, black people are pretty-much non-entities, however when wanting to slam the gays, the church used more photos of black people and children and families than i have every seen in all my years as a member. Funny how people can put their differences aside to unite under a blanket of hate for a group that they all hate in common.