It really is hard for me to explain how moving I find this recording. It's impossible to listen to it without thinking of Ian's suicide. Completely inseparable now are these 2 things and I think that's why it creates such an overwhelming response in people who listen to it. It truly brings you frighteningly close to the final anguished breath of a man on the verge of the edge of the end of sanity. Closer, (pun fully intended) than I'd prefer to ever be again. Yet I am drawn to it. I listen to a song here and there from time to time. Knowing full well that I must hold at arms length the very idea of once more listening from beginning to end. Somehow I find it necessary to make an active decision when I want to listen to this in its entirety. I can never just 'put it on' and listen to it. Not that I go through any rituals. But I know how once more my emotions will be torn apart as I slip deeper into a virtual trance-like state with every passing note. I guess you could say that this album scares me like no other music I've ever known. It's so hard to know that if I commit to all of it, I will be left feeling drawn thin and wasted, wanting nothing more than to lay in the dark feeling lost and vulnerable.
On a lighter note, if you're a fan of Joy Division and Closer you should really check out 'The Eternal: Variations On Joy Division' by the Nau Ensemble. It's an incredible stripped down classical and Gregorian chant style treatment of Joy Divisions music. Very sparse yet very rewarding. Highly recommended.