A Winter Eden
The first flake landed on a blackberry bush in the creek bottom of Meadowgate Farm. In the frozen hour before dawn, others found their mark on the mossy roof of the smokehouse; in a grove of laurel by the northwest pasture; on the handle of a hoe left propped against the garden fence.
Close by the pond in the sheep paddock, a buck, a doe, and two fawns stood motionless as an owl pushed off from the upper branches of a pine tree and sailed, silent and intent, to the ridge of the barn roof.
The owl hooted once, then twice.
As if summoned by its velveteen cry, the platinum moon broke suddenly from the clouds above the pond, transforming the waterï¿½s surface into a gleaming lake of molten pearl. Then, clouds sailed again over the face of the moon, and in the bitter darkness, snowflakes fell thick and fast, swirling as in a shaken globe.
It was twelve minutes after six oï¿½clock when a gray light rose above the brow of Hogback Mountain, exposing an imprint of tractor tires that linked Meadowgateï¿½s hay barn to the cow pasture and sheep paddock. The imprints of work boots and dog paws were also traceable along the driveway to the barn, and back to the door of the farmhouse, where smoke puffed from the chimney and lamplight shone behind the kitchen windows.
From a tulip poplar at the northeast corner to the steel stake at the southwest, all hundred and thirty acres of Meadowgate Farm lay under a powdery blanket of March snow.
Cynthia Kavanagh stood in the warmth of the farmhouse kitchen in a chenille robe, and gazed out on the hushed landscape.
ï¿½It makes everything innocent again,ï¿½ she said. ï¿½A winter Eden.ï¿½
At the pine table, Father Timothy Kavanagh leafed through his quote journal until he found the record heï¿½d jotted down. ï¿½Unbelievable! Weï¿½ve had snow one, two, three, four . . . this is the fifth time since Christmas Eve.ï¿½
ï¿½Snow, snow, and more snow!ï¿½
ï¿½Not to mention dogs, dogs, and more dogs! It looks like somebody backed up to the door and dumped a truckload of canines in here.ï¿½
Following his customary daylight romp, Barnabas, a Bouvier-wolfhound mix and his boon companion of ten years, was drowned in slumber on the hearth rug; Buckwheat, an English foxhound grown long in the tooth, had draped herself over the arm of the sofa; the Welsh corgi, aptly named Bodacious, snored in a wing chair she had long ago claimed as her own; and Luther, a recent, mixed-breed addition to the Meadowgate pack, had slung himself onto his bed in the corner, belly up. There was a collective odor of steam rising from sodden dog hair.
ï¿½Ugh!ï¿½ said his wife, who was accustomed to steam rising off only one wet dog.
Father Tim looked up from the journal in which he was transcribing notes collected hither and yon. ï¿½So what are you doing today, Kavanagh?ï¿½
Cynthia mashed the plunger of the French coffee press. ï¿½Iï¿½m doing the sketch of Violet looking out the kitchen window to the barn, and Iï¿½m calling Puny to find out about the twinsï¿½theyï¿½re days late, you know.ï¿½
ï¿½Good idea. Expected around March fourth or fifth, and here it is the fourteenth. Theyï¿½ll be ready for kindergarten.ï¿½
ï¿½And you must run to Mitford with the shopping list for Dooleyï¿½s homecoming dinner tomorrow.ï¿½
ï¿½Consider it done.ï¿½
His heart beat faster at the thought of having their boy home for spring break, but the further thought of having nothing more to accomplish than a run to The Local was definitely discouraging. Heaven knows, there was hardly anything to do on the farm but rest, read, and walk four dogs; heï¿½d scarcely struck a lick at a snake since arriving in mid- January. Willie Mullis, a full-timer whoï¿½d replaced the part-time Bo Davis, lived on the place and did all the odd jobs, feeding up and looking after livestock; Joyce Havner did the laundry and cleaning, as sheï¿½d done at Meadowgate for years; Blake Eddistoe ran the vet clinic, only a few yards from the farmhouse door, with consummate efficiency; there was even someone to bush hog and cut hay when the season rolled around.
In truth, it seemed his main occupation since coming to farm-sit for the Owens was waiting to hear from his bishop, Stuart Cullen, who had e-mailed him before Christmas.
He had scratched his head throughout the month of January, trying to reckon what the challenge might be. In February, heï¿½d called Stuart, attempting to gouge it out of him, but Stuart had asked for another couple of weeks to get the plan together before he spilled the beans.
Now, here they were in the middle of March, and not a word.
ï¿½Youï¿½re sighing, Timothy.ï¿½
ï¿½Wondering when Stuart will get off the pot.ï¿½
ï¿½Heï¿½s retiring in June and consecrating the cathedralï¿½altogether, a great deal to say grace over. Youï¿½ll hear soon, dearest.ï¿½
She handed him a mug of black coffee, which he took with gratitude.
So here he sat, retired from nearly four decades of active ministry as a priest, toasting himself by an open fire with his good-humored and companionable wife of seven years, and situated in what he believed to be the most breathtakingly beautiful countryside in America.
Why bother, after all, about some ï¿½challengeï¿½ that may or may not be coming. Hadnï¿½t he had challenges enough to last him a lifetime?
His wife, on the other hand, was ever drumming up a challenge. During their year at the farm, conveniently located twenty min-utes from Mitford, sheï¿½d decided to accomplish three lifetime goals: learn needlepoint, make perfect oven fries, and read War and Peace.
ï¿½So howï¿½s it coming with War and Peace?ï¿½
ï¿½I despise telling you this, but I havenï¿½t opened it once. Iï¿½m reading a charming old book called Mrs. Miniver.ï¿½
ï¿½And the fries?ï¿½
ï¿½Since Dooley comes tomorrow, Iï¿½ll be conducting my next experimentï¿½to see whether soaking the potatoes in ice water will make them crispier. And Iï¿½m definitely using peanut oil this time.ï¿½
ï¿½Iï¿½ll peel and cut,ï¿½ he said. He hadnï¿½t seen any activity around the needlepoint plan, so he declined to mention it.
ï¿½Pathetic,ï¿½ she said, reading his mind. ï¿½Iï¿½m all thumbs. Learning from a book is not the way to do it. Iï¿½ve decided to let Olivia tutor me, if she has a free day now and then. Besides, having lunch with someone who also wears eye shadow might be fun.ï¿½
ï¿½Iï¿½m definitely a dud in the eye shadow department.ï¿½
She thumped into the wing chair opposite him and took a sip from her coffee mug. ï¿½And what about you, dearest? Have you accomplished all your lifetime goals?ï¿½
Oddly, the question stung him. ï¿½I suppose I havenï¿½t thought about it.ï¿½ Maybe he hadnï¿½t wanted to think about having any further goals.
He closed his eyes and leaned his head against the back of the wing chair. ï¿½I believe if I were charged with having a goal, it would be to live without frettingï¿½to live more fully in the moment, not always huffing about as Iï¿½ve done in recent years . . . to live humblyï¿½and appreciativelyï¿½with whatever God furnishes.ï¿½
He reflected for a moment and raised his head and looked at her. ï¿½Yes. That would be my goal.ï¿½
ï¿½But arenï¿½t you doing that?ï¿½
ï¿½No. I feel obligated to get out there, to open myself to some new and worthwhile service. Iï¿½ve been a bump on a log these last weeks.ï¿½
ï¿½Itï¿½s OK to be a bump on a log once in a while. ï¿½Be still,ï¿½ He tells us, ï¿½and know that I am God.ï¿½ We must learn to wait on Him, Timothy. All those years of preaching and celebrating, and doing the interim at Whitecapï¿½what a lovely legacy God allowed you to have there; and ministering to Louella and Miss Sadie and HTlFne Pringle and Morris Love and George Gaynor and Edith Mallory and the Leepers . . .ï¿½ She took a deep breath. ï¿½On and on, an entire community, for heavenï¿½s sake, not to mention volunteering at the Childrenï¿½s Hospital and rounding up Dooleyï¿½s little sister and brothers . . .ï¿½
ï¿½One brother still missing,ï¿½ he said, ï¿½and what have I done about it?ï¿½
ï¿½There may be nothing you can do about it. Thereï¿½s absolutely nothing to go on, no leads of any kind. Maybe God alone can do something about it. Perhaps Kenny is Godï¿½s job.ï¿½
The fire crackled on the hearth; the dogs snored.
His wife had just preached him a sermon, and it was one he needed to hear. He had a mate who knew precisely what was what, especially when he didnï¿½t.
ï¿½ï¿½Let us then be up and doing,ï¿½ï¿½ he quoted from Wordsworth, ï¿½ï¿½with a heart for any fate!ï¿½ Whereï¿½s the grocery list?ï¿½
ï¿½In my head at present, but letï¿½s get it out.ï¿½ She opened the small drawer in the lamp table and removed her notebook and pen.
ï¿½Steak!ï¿½ She scribbled. ï¿½Same old cut?ï¿½
ï¿½Same old, same old. New York strip.ï¿½ This would be no Lenten fast, but a Lenten feast for a starving college boy who was seldom home.
ï¿½Russet potatoes,ï¿½ she said, continuing the litany.
ï¿½Always best for fries.ï¿½ His blood would soon get up for this cookathon, even if he couldnï¿½t eat much on the menu. While some theologians construed St. Paulï¿½s thorn to be any one of a variety of alarming dysfunctions, heï¿½d been convinced for years that it was the s...