I enjoyed reading this book a lot. I did find myself re-reading many paragraphs to get the meaning correct--not that it was a confusing read, but instead I wanted to make sure I understood where the author was coming from. Mr. Blake took a big risk exposing himself like this, letting his feelings and vulnerabilities out for all to see.
Regarding the first few chapters, I really enjoyed reading about the many forces that came together to shape him. Everyone has a story to tell about how they came to be who they are. I personally always enjoy learning about what makes a person, any person, tick, but I found Mr. Blake's story much different from what I expected.
Throughout the book there were many sad moments, and while I didn't mind reading about them, I had to stop reading a few times because things like remembering different friends/family dropping like flies in the 80s, the pains of breakups, let-downs by friends, etc.
His thoughts on church and religion were particularly well written. It made me think: Can you imagine what would happen to so many of these churches if every gay and lesbian, bi and transgendered person just got up and left???? I have been for a good church over the years because of this, and am still looking for a good fit for me in NYC that is inclusive without me having to part of an exclusively gay congregation.
I found the porn industry chapters fascinating. These are the parts of the book I had to read twice, particularly the rivalry chapters (Bam, Tiger Tyson, etc.). At first I thought, "is this guy for real? he seems a bit full of himself" but after re-reading it, its not that at all. In business, regardless of the industry, you have to be smart, sometimes ruthless, and cunning. God gave us wisdom and cleverness to work our way through the minefields of life. This is exactly what Mr. Blake's done, and in spades! Well done.
It's great that he wrote about how he stood up for himself within the porn industry. Some people are naive enough to believe that in the porn industry, people are so liberal and open-minded that they are all passed the racist and ethnic hatred and bias found in other industries. His book is an important tool for the young ones looking to get into the industry, a reminder that things have changed, but not completely, and the best defense is a strong sense of self, confident and proud.
But the chapters about Flexx-Deon were very sad. I'm glad he wrote about the experience, and I hope people don't think its just him "throwing him under the bus" as they say. I don't know Mr. Flexx-Deon so I won't put his life o the spot, but speaking in broader terms it's true that so many gay guys don't plan for their future, particularly hispanic and black gays. They don't spend their money properly. They don't think about their needs 10 years from now, or even 10 weeks from now, living check-to-check. They don't think about what will happen if they lose their jobs ( guess they move back home or live with family or friends), or what happens if a family member becomes ill and is unable to care for him or herself. We live in such a self-absorbed world now. Perhaps with some luck some of these guys will read Mr. Blake's book, so they can see themselves from the outside in, and realize that they are not just doing damage to themselves, but end up leaving a long trail of collateral damage in the form of loves ones.
Of all parts of the book, I liked the ending the most. It shows Mr. Blake having come full circle--literally, since he's living in the house he spent many of his early years in.
Well done, Mr. Blake.