I am 25 years old. I've been married to my husband for two and a half years only, but we've been best friends for 11 years now. Just recently, I discovered that my husband is having an affair with a married woman- a friend from college. Upon learning, I have endured a succession of emotional blows from my husband. My husband was my guardian angel but now he's the catastrophe who ruined my life and stripped me off of my self respect and dignity. I was appalled by my husband's reaction when I caught his affair. He had so much pride that he did not apologize. He wanted to protect his concubine that he sent me away infront of her and made her stay instead. He had so much hatred for me that his words insulted me and wounded me more. He had a very deep emotional attachement to her that he had written her that she was more important, he love her more and he would prove that because he would leave me for her. I could not comprehend how he could have betrayed me and wounded me so badly in spite of the years we've been together. I have been his partner, best friend, sister and wife, so was he to me. Now it all shattered. When I read Alice May's Surviving Betrayal, I got all the assurance that I needed... that the affair was never my fault. I got affirmations regarding my emotions. I discovered that, though I have lost myself in placing my husband above everything else in my life, I could still pick up the shattered pieces in my life with courage and with faith in God. It is not an easy task. I think I will forever be trapped in the process of healing, but with the guidance of the Lord,the support of my loving mother and faith in my husband that he would change, I will survive. In God's time I will heal. Though my husband has not shown any signs of concrete repentance and remorse for what he did, I am not angry with him. With his betrayal I learned that there's nothing my husband could do that could make me love him less; not even if it is at the expense of loosing myself.