When I bought this album in June, 2011 at a local CD-store (the former Firma H.G. van Luijken Klassiek, Breestraat, Leiden) I was desperately in "love" with her: The Summer of '11 :-(. The prelude to this event dates from September 2003 when I was confronted with her for the first time. I saw and read her name (on the cover of the first Samuel Barber CD of her (Barber O.W. Vol. I/Naxos) at another local CD-store (the former 'Barning's Muziekhandel', Stationsweg, Leiden). Around that time I was buying classical music for the first time of my life. I was then rather "old" already: 45 years of age. I wondered myself if was the name of a male or a female conductor. The name fascinated me from the beginning. It was "love" at first sight, albeit not mutual as you all know - I was and I am still the great unknown in her life. A picture of her inside the booklet of her Naxos CD of Lenny Bernstein's Chichester Psalms-album did the rest. (Why did you expose yourself to an idiot like me?) The sympathy for that person slumbered all those years almost invisibly until the passion explodes inside my head at the beginning of June last year. I became crazy, say completely insane so it felt. I took extra anti-psychotics (I'm suffering from a bi-polar disorder.) to temper "Moved stormly, with the greatest ''Vehemenz.", just like the Second Movement of Mahler's Fifth Symphony, but then inside my head! ;-). The the only result was that I became sedated and that I felt myself physically sick. Why her? why me? Reason had left me completely. In that kind of atmosphere I bought the Tchaikovsky-album. The 'Vehemenz' diminished a greater deal, but the true and sincere longing blossoms, still ('Adagietto'). Nowadays my feelings are tempered, but my feelings towards that person are still very alive and present and increasing. That's why the sub-title of Tchaikovsky's Fourth, "Our Symphony", is very relevant for what I experienced that very moment when I heard the sounds of this CD for the first time. It was if there was a siren, my personal siren, talking to me. I'm not in the same position of mrs. Von Meck, because this was overwhelming my heart, although the quality of playing isn't so gripping at all. The performance lacks a bite like the Mravinsky on DG. does. Why the full marks? Because this is a sincere attempt to communicate with the 'other' world. This kind of music and this kind of Accomplished music making is very difficult, if not impossible, how reach out to eternal and cosmical loved-one. How to try to express your feelings of longing and despair in one single symphony. The perception of the listener is even essential of that of composer, orchestra or conductor. This CD echoes a struggle in several ways by several persons. Doubt, despair and passion in one upheaval of creativity. This is not Marin's finest music, but undoubtfully and more likely here most honest. This is music composed and performed by humans not by machines. A.I. is very remote from this album. This warm kind of music making. The Santa Fe Listener may think that I have a soft spot for this conductor. Not for here as a conductor, but only for her as a human being whose music making is exemplary for her intelligence. This CD is not showing too much of that. This a mediocre piece of art in the ears of many. But all the more human. Forget the sheer perfection of Mravinsky, and take a warm bath in sincere human feelings.
I'm aware that this a very subjective and personal review, like all the others I wrote for this site. They aren't ment for the millions. They are ment for just the one who find they aren't reviews at all. My personallity is the opposite of Peter Iljich, I think that he should not very dislike me when we should meet each other because I am, what is said by the late Henry van Praag (professor of psychology,R.U., Utrecht, Holland), a hyper-romantical personality. (And do I trying to romancing a stone? ;-))
And you dear reader, what do you think of this short referate on music and psychology?
Don't hesitate to buy this CD before this CD is out of stock. (gnarr, gnarr: i-Tunes) And do you wish more of Marin's humanity, buy and listen to here Brahms cycle. I disliked Brahms' symphonies, even under the baton of a Klemperer or a Swarowsky, even my compatriot Van Zweden couldn't convince me, but she is in Brahms a true revelation. Marin's Tchaikovsky's Fourth is evidently problematical (why?), but in Brahms the sun started to shine. May the sun shine forever. Amen.
Kindest Regards, Cor.
Edited (minor corrections/additions): December 29th, 2013. What will bring the year 2014 to us all? Nobody knows!
"Niets is zeker en zelfs dat niet." Your mind is the deepest abyss I can imagine, the darkest and most dangerous black hole of the them all. - my mind too? Be honest and sincere, and nothing besides that. Only a single gesture is enough to kill the illusion which I am living in now. Please kill it... I am dying for a simple, mind blowing experience which sets me back to my origen. Amen.
(Do I mean that? No, of course not. Only the future is decisive in what is wrong and what is good. Patience won't help us.)
I am not suffering, on the contrary, I am happy as I can be - no lying at all, honestly... :-) Bye!