The Perpetual Ending [Paperback]

Their early years are spent in rural Canada, the twins, two halves of a whole, enjoy whole days exploring the beauty of nature, inventing their own world. When their parents separate, that world is shattered and Lucy moves with the twins to Toronto, a city bursting with people and constant racket, the quiet of the countryside a distant memory. Lucy has distant hopes of a career as an artist, taking night classes in painting. In Toronto, their standard of living has declined markedly, their few possessions from yard sales and junk stores. Lucy's elementary paintings decorate the otherwise barren walls, a variety of still life arrangements.

But Jane desperately misses her father, forgetting about their parents' fights that lasted hours, ending only with the dawn and mutual exhaustion. When their father visits, Jane is loathe to release him, begging to return to Vancouver with him. Finally, Jane prevails, coercing her sister into coming along as well. Eugenie agrees to accompany them, a fateful decision that will affect all their lives.

Written in narrative form, Jane speaks to her twin, gazing back over the early years of their childhood, reliving memories both cherished and painful. Now grown, Jane has fallen deeply in love with Simon, a kind man who generously shares everything with her, his dreams, his fears, his past. In exchange, Jane tells Simon lies, refusing to speak about her family or explain why she is estranged from them. In fact, he thinks Jane has no family. Jane has written a series of fanciful fables, in partnership with Simon, each containing a small remnant of her truth. Simon lavishly illustrates her fairy tales and the elegant books are an immediate success. When Jane is called home in an emergency, she leaves without ever telling Simon the truth of her past. She leaves without Simon.

This is a story of belonging and not belonging, of love and loss, of painful self-examination bred of courage. Redemption is possible for Jane, but only she can take the first step. As Jane spins ethereal fables of Pirouette, of Millicent and the Thousand Pennies, of Dulcimer-Gossamer, the vivid images reflect Jane's unconscious quest for healing, constricted by the fears that overwhelm her reality. A virtual Pandora's Box of imagination, these magical stories spill out like a handful of sparkling jewels, each exquisite by itself. Jane's own history and grief fold gently around her fables, protecting the small fragments of her unconscious, parables that cry to be heard, to be understood.

With a deft hand, the author guides Jane through the bottomless grief and guilt of her past, toward a real future. The all too human flaws of den Hartog's characters render them imperfect and too often blinded by selfishness, but, as each tale plants a tiny seed of hope, Jane's heart follows the path home that will open the door to forgiveness and finally, belonging. Luan Gaines/2003.