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If Only... by [Stevenson, Beckie]
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They say the truth can set you free...

Our story started like the fairytales you grew up reading, but it doesn’t end like them.

I was fifteen when I realised I was in love with Cole. He was the foster kid who wore scruffy clothes and never had any money. He was the bad boy, the fighter. The boy who took all the dares—and won. He was the boy that scared me but excited me at the same time. He was the boy I shouldn’t have wanted, but, of course, he was the one I wanted the most.

In the beginning, he was mine. And I was his.
Cole and Evie. Evie and Cole.

But then a lie was told. Lies break people. And broken people shatter into little pieces of tortured pasts and fractured futures.

And then our fairytale beginning morphed into a story of heartache and sadness, instead of happiness and hope. A story that ended with lost love, friendship, and a never-ending cycle of what ifs and if onlys.

Our ending broke me. Shattered me. Destroyed me.

When a story ends like ours did, is it any wonder I never wanted to start a new one again?

About the Author

Beckie's real name is Rebecca, but she get’s called (and answers to) any of the following…Beckie, Bek, Becca, Rebecca, Pip, Pippy or Stevo. Beckie is the author of 'Sorrow Woods,' the 'Existing' series, 'Noah and Me' and 'If Only...' She is due to publish more YA, NA and Adult novels in 2015/16. She lives in Staffordshire, England, with her partner and two children. Beckie likes putting music on in the house and dancing around like a mad woman. When she isn’t playing with her children, doing housework, dancing around the house like a mad woman, walking, cycling, reading or writing, then she can be found working in an investment bank. Or sleeping.

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  • Language: English
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1 of 1 people found the following review helpful
HASH(0xa1274024) out of 5 stars Great second chance romance, I couldn't put this one down! Feb. 1 2016
By Casey M. Britton - Published on
Format: Kindle Edition
Review for Ramblings From This Chick.

If Only... is my first book from Beckie Stevenson and what a ride it was! I feel like my emotions are still all over the place after finishing. The one thing I can tell you is that I could not put this book down! This is the first book I have read in awhile that I just had to keep reading and didn't want to set it down for anything. I stayed up way past my bedtime, but I just had to find out what was going on with Evie and Cole! If Only... was so good and I can't wait for more from Beckie Stevenson.

Evie and Cole's relationship started when they were kids, and their story should have been a fairytale. Until one day and one lie changed everything. Years later they are both still feeling the heartbreak and sadness from losing each other. But when fate brings them back together will it finally bring them closure to move on, or will it be their second chance at the happy ending they always wanted with each other?

I loved Evie and Cole! They were so easy to like, even with all the times that they absolutely frustrated me. Both of them made mistakes and they were far from perfect. Yet they were real and showed vulnerability, and I couldn't help but feel so invested in each of them and their future together. Evie and Cole both thought that they knew everything about the event that separated them, but it was clear right from the start that they didn't. I loved seeing that all unravel as each of them learned the truth. My heart broke for them both and all they had been through. The one thing that was clear though was the fact that their connection, chemistry and the undeniable love they shared had never dimmed or gone away despite everything.

I will warn potential readers that this story won't be for everyone. It is filled with angst and drama, and there are a lot of things that could potentially frustrate readers about this story. I personally love to torture myself at times with stories about love and loss and heartbreak, so this book was one that I really enjoyed even when I hated what was happening. But I really believe that this book is worth the shot, especially if you like second chance love stories. While I wasn't happy about a lot that had happened for these two and I didn't like a few things that each of them did, the story was such a great one that I found myself easily forgiving them and getting lost in their connection. Evie and Cole's their journey was anything but easy, but I never stopped believing in their love and that they were meant to be together. I really loved where these two ended up and I will definitely read more from Beckie Stevenson in the future.

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1 of 1 people found the following review helpful
HASH(0xa1273c30) out of 5 stars I loved it! Jan. 18 2016
By I Love Story Time - Published on
Format: Kindle Edition

"Our ending broke me. Shattered me. Destroyed me."

OMG!!! I loved it!! It was sooo good!! The minute I started it, I was intrigued! I read it in one day...I couldn't put it down! I loved that when the story was in Cole's POV, we got the past and when it was in Evie's POV, we got the present. It allowed me to be able to see the way their relationship started and how they got to where they are now. I loved the part when Cole told Evie what he thought their first date would be like. I think that's when I fell in love with him. There really isn't anything else to say about Cole other than, how much I loved him! If I were to meet him, I would have to say the exact same thing he said to Evie!

“I’m so in love with you,” I tell her. “Completely and utterly head over heels in love with you."

Yup! That pretty much sums it up! I know I will never meet him, but if I did, that would be me! And then, I would jump on him! LOL!! Ugh... I'm just so sad that the story had to end. I seriously could have kept reading about them forever. Cole and Evie had a really cute relationship. I also liked when they were talking about how often a 16 year old boy wanks it! That was another laugh out loud moment for me! I'm so happy with the way things turned out for them! I really liked all of the characters from this story. Especially Aiden! I laughed so hard when he was explaining his drawing to Evie! Then when Clive shows up and he reminds Evie about his drawing, I couldn't stop laughing. I would love to see a story written about him! There's just something about that boy that tells me his story would be HOT! So...Beckie Stevendon, if you're trying to figure out what to write about next, Aiden's story would be my vote! Either way, I can't wait to see what's next from this author!

1 of 1 people found the following review helpful
HASH(0xa12353c0) out of 5 stars Angsty and twisty Jan. 28 2016
By Missy F. - Published on
Format: Kindle Edition
I am a sucker for second chance romances. Evie and Cole are young lovers, finding love at fifteen/sixteen. It's fairy tale perfect until Cole keeps a secret and then tells a lie that ends their story.....until 8 years later, they end up working together and find they still have a connection. But, Evie has a secret too.

I loved the dual POV. The past was told by Cole, the present by Evie. This book had a lot of funny surprises, including how much we were in Cole's 16 year old sexed up head. It was REALLY funny. Cole as an adult, not funny, but smoking hot and such a filthy mouth! Evie fought her attraction to him and she was an angry bitch. I wanted to judge Evie - ok I judged Evie - for not forgiving him sooner but her secret changed how I viewed her and helped me understand why she was so mad.

This was a twisty book. It was two different love stories in one, young Cole and Evie and adult Cole and Evie. This book had everything. Love, laughter, death, friendship, lies, misunderstandings, angst, first-times, heartache, romance, sex. It was sometimes too much and became a little too fantastical even for fiction. I also felt there were some items that wrapped up quickly and left me wondering. NO spoilers, but the phone call to her brother that changed everything WAS gut-wrenching.

Overall, I read this book in one day. If you love angsty, soul destroying books, with a redeeming HEA, this is definitely a story you want to read.
1 of 1 people found the following review helpful
HASH(0xa1274378) out of 5 stars Love This Second Chance Love Story!! Jan. 27 2016
By Stephanie - Published on
Format: Kindle Edition
This was a wonderful book! I loved it. It is the story of Evie and Cole, Cole and Evie, who fell in love as teenagers. The book is told in alternating chapters, Cole's POV from the past and Evie's POV from the present. I was so caught up in the present day story in Evie's POV, I was anxious to get through Cole's chapters, but as the story progresses, you need that Cole POV.

"What I see is a girl who is so broken she's shattering into a thousand pieces right in front of me. She's so fragile that I daren't even touch her, but I have to. Because this is my last chance, isn't it, Evie?"

There is too much going on in this book to give anything away....we learn early on that a lie that Cole admits to changes everything. He does it for what he thinks are the right reasons, and I truly felt bad for him. That undermines and changes everything. And while I was frustrated with Evie and her punishment of Cole, part of me understood. I was also very frustrated with Nico during this whole story!!

This story is a whirlwind of ups and downs and Holy Cow, I didn't see that coming's (plural, meaning more than one of those)!! It was a great read and I couldn't put it down when I hit the 50% mark. Excellent read!! I love second chance love stories!!

Our ending broke me. Shattered me. Destroyed me.

I received this copy in exchange for my honest review.
1 of 1 people found the following review helpful
HASH(0xa12355c4) out of 5 stars 5 stars!! Jan. 29 2016
By Reviews from the Heart - Published on
Format: Kindle Edition
I Felt A Rainbow of Emotions!! Definitely worth reading!!
If Only... 2 words that are intertwined with the emotion of Regret.This story makes you feel, and maybe even think about love lost,and chances not taken! Of choices we make to protect the people we love,even if it is at our own expense! My heart was broken several times throughout the book,as Cole and Evie's story unfolded.
If Only Cole wasn't a foster child who had adopted Evie's Whole family,maybe he would not have sacrificed his future for them. Protecting them from the realities of a son and brother who had a problem. Giving years of his life for something he did not do! All to protect Evie and her family!! If Only he had made a wiser choice,and told her family about Nico's drug use things may have been different. Evie and Cole were in love and planned a future together! In one tragic night,Cole lost it ALL!! As I was reading,all I wanted was for Cole and Evie to be reunited! If Only they could put the past behind them! Will they be able to do that?